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In the Midst of Winter

In the midst of winter, I found there was, within me, an invincible summer. As if that wasn’t powerful enough, Albert Camus goes on to write “and that makes me happy. For it says that no matter how hard the world pushes against me, within me, there’s something stronger- something better, pushing right back.” I connected with the first part of the quote immediately. Having spent most of my life believing that I was weak and powerless- choosing sobriety was the most empowering decision I’ve ever made. Rising FROM THE GRAVE and transforming my life redefined me, but it also opened up a whole world of new struggles. When I finally decided I was ready to get sober, I had an expectation that the rest of my life was going to be a piece of cake. Surrendering was such a freeing experience that it left me short-sighted. I was under the false impression that all my struggles, negative coping mechanisms, and behaviors would be instantaneously removed. Boy was I wrong. I