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Enter the Cave

“The very cave you are afraid to enter turns out to be the source of what you are looking for. The damn thing in the cave that was so dreaded has become the center.” Joseph Campbell 
So, there’s two words we must consider:  “Source” and the “Center”. So, the question is what do these words mean to you and more importantly what is the benefit of experiencing them? Now, if we know the cave is the answer, and it is, what price am I willing to pay? It truly is the avenue of traveling from the Mind (Fear/Cave) to the Heart (Love/Source). Out of the deepest abyss comes the voice of Salvation. Fear is a shapeshifter. It is cunning. And we give it all the power over us. The Cave is the most frightening thing on Earth; until I enter it. 
The Freedom exists where you stumble. There and only there is your treasure. It is the call of Life for you to face it! How much freedom do you want? How much peace do you wish to have? It’s up to you. Unfortunately, know one can walk through your fear for you. …
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How to step back and gain perspective

1. YOU HAVE TO STEP BACK
I must remember that I cannot see my ears. If I can digest this fact then I can agree I don’t always see things as they are. Let “Collision” be your guide. If you face collision with other people, circumstances, feelings, relationship etc (which all points to internal conflict) then I must first step back and quiet the conflict. I will never find solution with a disturbed mind.
2. HAVE SOMEONE WHO CAN SEE YOUR EARS
Seeking council with others is a practice as old as time can reach. If you’re doing life by yourself I feel bad for you. An open book policy with one other man/woman in your life will yield countless benefits. I must be able to lay myself out; insecurities and all before another human in order to gain proper perspective. Absolute vulnerability is a treasure chest that continues to give. It never hold back.
3. LOOK IN THE MIRROR
Have to courage to know you are literally the creator of your life. You are 100% responsible for your collision. You are also 10…

How to make goals now that you’re in recovery

How to make goals now that you’re in recovery

You’re sober. Now what? The fog has lifted; hopefully. A new world has come into view; hopefully. Life begins to open up! It’s as if life has been screaming at you. Pleading, yearning for you to take up your mat and walk again. That’s some exciting shit. Escape from the hell of addiction naturally breeds vitality into the sober man or woman. Now, the job at hand is to become a caretaker of said vitality and use this newfound zeal for life to build a positive, constructive life worth living. With that said, we’re going to talk about goals! And more importantly how to conquer these goals. In my years of recovery, I have seen a pervasive shortcoming in many in recovery: great starter… poor finisher. Let’s get to it.
Foundation. The stones better be in placeWhen I first got sober years ago I remember a gentleman asking me, “Scott, what’s your favorite color?”. I couldn’t answer him. I had been so deep in a self-constructed prison that personal “…

Dorian in the Mind

Dorian makes its way toward Florida's East Coast. Stress grapples the air. I am reminded of the acute feeling of powerlessness. I once heard a Pastor remark that "the world is broken by sin". Let's consider that sin is merely falling short of a chosen ideal; naturally evil trickles down this scale. As he made this statement he went on to say that the natural disasters we face is a result of the collision of sin. Interesting perspective right? Whether we agree or not - Dorian dances on the sea. Dorian moves with impunity and we stand threatened. 
Yes, we will be okay. A metaphor if I may... I have been my own Dorian for many many years insisting there was little I could do. The mind is the most marvelous mechanism. It can assist you in creating the most self-inflicted turmoil one could ever experience or lead you to absolute freedom. In my experience the spiritual and emotional turmoil has to come before emotional sobriety. I move at the speed of pain! Sober of mind, …

In the Midst of Winter

In the midst of winter, I found there was, within me, an invincible summer. As if that wasn’t powerful enough, Albert Camus goes on to write “and that makes me happy.For it says that no matter how hard the world pushes against me, within me, there’s somethingstronger- something better, pushing right back.”I connected with the first part of the quote immediately. Having spent most of my life believing
that I was weak and powerless- choosing sobriety was the most empowering decision I’ve ever
made. Rising FROM THE GRAVE and transforming my life redefined me, but it also opened up a
whole world of new struggles.
When I finally decided I was ready to get sober, I had an expectation that the rest of my life was
going to be a piece of cake. Surrendering was such a freeing experience that it left me
short-sighted. I was under the false impression that all my struggles, negative coping
mechanisms, and behaviors would be instantaneously removed. Boy was I wrong.
I want to talk about the parts…
BUILDER OF THOUGHTS - THE MESSAGE
I first stumbled upon the term “Mental Equivalent” while reading Emmet Fox. Sounds trippy right? However, it’s simple. Mental equivalent merely means “reflection”. You can’t have one type of mind and a different type of an environment. Insert Proverbs 27:19 “As water reflects the face so ones life reflects the heart”. I always think of Lion King when Simba leans over a puddle to embrace his reflection in the water. You simply can’t not see your reflection if you lean over a body of water (given the sun is in the right place and all that jazz, you get the picture). We could say this is a Universal Law. Enter the afflicted addict/alcoholic; no wonder the circumstances of our lives characterize absolute destruction! Our minds are a living war. Utter insanity is our lot. But for the Grace of God we are set free. The obsession lifts. Sobriety begins to string itself together. No longer able to turn to the poison of drugs and alcohol our problems become acu…

Thieves of Moments

The most frightening moment is when you see – with sober eyes - how your addiction struck terror into the hearts of your loved ones. Mother smiles. Her warm joy dances on her face like sunlight. Father’s nod of approval jolts glee into his walk. Behind Mother’s smile and beneath Father’s strut is terror. Unadulterated fear. Attending to a sober life, repairing the damages done, paying the money back; making our own way on our own feet is good, indeed. However, the stark reality: the harm we’ve wrought upon others – spiritually, emotionally, and physically – we are scarcely aware.  Years ago, an old sponsor said to me:  “I’ll probably never be aware of the full measure of my wrongs done others. If I knew, I may not be able to bare it.” How appallingly true. Most loved ones  remained petrified for years after the addict recovers. This diseases affects loved ones at a cellular level. The disease takes its toll in active addiction, during convalescence and well after recovery finds its ro…